happiness

10 reasons of Gratitude for Today

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Everyone shares the same point that happiness is at the heart of this life. However, everyone has his/her own definition on What happiness is.   Ones said that they found their full of happiness in the middle of party with a bunch of friends. Contrarily, others said that they found their pure happiness in his/her self in the middle of lonely solitude night. There might be fake and true happiness, but it is everyone personal right to define those ‘happiness’. So, what does happiness mean for you?

It was Tuesday (14/05/2013), the raining day in the summer session. It was just an ordinary day as the past other days. Just like weather, my mood frequently changes. There is sunny but also cloudy. There is sunshine, but also there is rain. So is my mood. It lies between  Happiness and Sadness, between lough and cry, that dominate interchangeably in every different single day.

Today, I believed to Ones who said that to boast  your happiness, you should make a list of reasons of gratitude and you must be sincerely thankful upon. So, here are my 10 reasons of my gratitude today.

  1. The fact that I am still alive.
  2. The fact that I am healthy.
  3. I have lovely wife.
  4. I have lovely Son.
  5. I have supporting family.
  6. I have friends.
  7. I have a chance to study abroad.
  8. I have quality time to learn without working.
  9. I have great supervisor.
  10. I have believe on God.

Indeed, it was countless actually to utter all the reasons of my gratitude. Might thousands of them. However, realizing those countless reasons should make you happy.

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makan

It was my typical day of my PhD life. Spend almost all the time in the lab. However, in the evening I have gathering with friends, my Indonesian friends. We had a Pot Luck party at Mbak Dewi house that apparently it was her birth day celebration. Happy birthday Mbak Dewi !  I, Arif, and Pak Sukirno cooked roasted chickens the ones that many people requested for. They were fooled with the pictures uploaded on the Facebook.

The invitation was at 5 PM. Ridiculously, we just waited for the bus at around 7 PM and we should pick up another friend to come along.  Finally, we arrived at around 8 PM, when the party was ending. Fortunately, we did not miss the photo session. We were extremely late. Everyone had finished their meal and drink and many of them were leaving the house. Actually, it was little bit intentionally. I was fasting ( regards to Rajab) and the Maghrib was at 09.00 PM. So, we ate our meal at around 9 PM.

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It was always a happiness to get together with friends especially the ones from the same nationality. We shared lough and smiles. Is it the true happiness? For me, I found my true happiness, when we were praying Maghrib together (with mas walid, arif, pak sukirno, mas udin, and pak Abdurrhman) after the party and the following discussion after that till 10.00 pm. Thank you for the happiness of today ya Allah.

*) pictures are courtesy of Mbak Dewi, Thanks and Happy birthday again.

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the 17 (seventeen) secret

Today is Friday, 17 th September 2010. I think it is very “good” day. Since it is Friday (mother of days for muslimeen in a week). The same thing for Seventeenth. 17 th birth day is special one. 17 is the number of rakaat all muslimeen pray in a day. 17 is the date of Independent day of my country. 17 is the date Quran is firstly delivered. For me, 17 What is it means?

Today is the anniversary of my marriage. For months ago is my marriage. Oh… the time went by swift. There are some significant changes in my Life. However, there must be laugh and cry in life, right? The thing make me laugh is the presence of my wife that kill my loneliness so far, and now she is pregnant in first trimester. Just like another new couple, It really make us happy, waiting for the presence of our first son/daughter. The thing make me cry is “No Need” insya Allah. For me, No need to cry for each single stage of this life, how hard it is.

Sometime, I wonder would I  make my happy family come true some day, later? But, firstly, we must define what happiness is . What is happiness, for you? this question remind me an inspiring movie : “The pursuit of happiness”. Obviously, everyone has his/her own definition. However, most of people define a happiness is having much money, glamorous fashion,  luxurious house and car, enjoying holidays at some prestigious places, having beautiful/handsome and sexy wife/husband and so far.

For me, happiness is when we can tie  a meaning in each single step of Life. For me, this life  is no more than a temporary stopover for next real life i.e. Hereafter.

I wonder : What a Happiness is ?

“Pursuit of  happiness” [remember me a wonderful film, a film starred by Will Smith about the on-and-off-homeless salesman-turned-stockbroker Chris Gardner :p] . Definitely, you and I are very sure Everyone in this world want to pursuit a happiness in their Life.  No one want to friend with tears and sadness along his/her Life. No none want to life in poverty in this world. Everyone want to smile and lough.  But, sometime I wonder what a happiness actually is. Is it a same definition for everyone?

Happiness is a state of mind or feeling such as contentment, satisfaction, pleasure, or joy [en, wiki]. I think not many people confute on the definition of happiness. But, How to pursuit those state of mind and feelings, everyone has his/her own way. One of my friend said that He felt happy since He have a very popular web blog with high page rank, although no much money on his hand. ” I am feeling mo re happy than them” He said while pointing some people with glamorous style nearby him.  My Another friend said that the ultimate happiness is when you can make money without any effort. You can buy a happiness with your money in your hand he advised me. My else another friend believed that happiness is when you have love in your hand, the ultimate happiness is when you are falling in love.

When I was endeavoring to finish my thesis. I thought that happiness was when I could successfully finished my thesis and got my M.Sc. degree. But, when I got it all, Should I redefine on what happiness is? So, happiness will evolve over and over wrestling with the time. Happiness is get together for those who alone. Happiness is fresh water for those who is thirsty. Happiness is enough money for those who live in poverty, Happiness is get a good job for jobless.  etc. , etc. and etc.  Then what actually the real happiness.

Finally, I contemplate my self. In my lonely room, no one besides me. In the middle of night. Thinking deeply insight what a happiness is.  Eventually, I realized that happiness is when I know better of my self and another happiness is when I can contribute to others. When I know better of me, it draws me to know better of God. I realized that I was so fragile, weak, empty, and need a great power. That a great power is no other but God. God, who look after me in each single time. God, who make I never feel lonely before, during, and after this temporary Life.  God, He is the source of the ultimate of pure  happiness.  and another happiness is found when I contribute not for my self, but when I contribute for others.

When I know better source of the ultimate of pure  happiness, there should be a happiness in each single of my time. Oh God, guide me to run a way to know better and better of you.

cakshon [@ ITS, 300309 17:10 PM]